Ashley's Top 11 Moments of 2011

Today is the last day of 2011-- I could write an inspirational post about learning to embrace 2011 and move forward in God for 2012 & What you did in 2011 is now behind you and you have 366 days to do something new Or you might have done or said some things in 2011 that you may want to forget-- seek God's face for forgiveness and be better in 2012.

But. I won't do that.

What I will do is give you my top 11 moments (and a bonus) of 2011-- how the Gilmores' survived our first full year in Durham. Ready? Let's Go.

11. In January, we put my Granny in a nursing home. She had been living with my mother for about 1 year and the progression of the disease was getting to much for my mom-- so, I flew home and we took her to Golden Living Nursing Facility in Merrillville. This was one of the hardest things for my mother-- but she overcame it. Unfortunately, the nursing home was not caring for Granny the way they should have-- so by Christmas-- Granny was back home-- with Mom. Pray for them.

10. Declaration for a new job. You can read more about that testimony, here.

9. Facilitating my first bible study. What an awesome and humbling experience! I watched Jeremy do it for years and it became easy for him and eventually me too-- We read 'The Power of a Praying Wife.' Great experience, great group-- so much, I did it again (with a great friend) this semester!

8. Deciding to take better care of my hair. Even though I have been natural since June 2008, I felt like my hair was never growing and that it was just as unhealthy as it had been with a relaxer. So with the help of a few of my favorite natural hair bloggers/vloggers, I resolved to take much better care of my hair. To moisturize, trim my ends and to have a head of healthy hair. It became an obsession, Jeremy asked me one day 'Is that all you do?' Never mind him.. How did I do?

My end of the year blow-out..

7. Engage in more bible reading. I love YouVersion for my phone! I'm telling you, technology has its bad moments but the bible for your phone?!  Yep-- thanks for that invention! YouVersion for Android has a variety of plans that allow you become one-on-one with scripture. One of the best things about this year was reading the book of Proverbs. I feel good not only to have read it but also to understand and apply it!

6.Facebook & Twitter. (Yes, honey-- I know you cringe at this one but read my explanation). While in Durham, I have friends but it's nothing like being connected to your home--your comfort zone. I became dependent on facebook and eventually twitter to know what was going on with people, to communicate, to update on us, etc.. Yes, my name is @ashleydgilmore and I have a social media problem. #SueMe (Share)

5. Phone conversations. This year, since we've only been home once, I've been blessed to have amazing phone conversations with my sistas from other mothers-- about life, relationships, our journeys and when I've needed it the most- honest encouragement! Love my sisters-- so much! Thank you!

4. Praying with and for my mother. It is extremely-- I mean, EXTREMELY hard being the only child of a disabled parent-- who has moved several miles away. My mother has had a rough year (financially, emotionally) but one thing she has done, is remain consistent. So-- I made it a goal to pray for her spirit and to help her understand that this rough year was just a season and that God has something better for her.

3. Jocelyn is potty trained!!!! Yes! Jeremy & I have never been more humbled and disgusted in our lives! Our little princess is now wearing big-girl undies and is extremely happy about it! We are grateful to her daycare for really facilitating this and making it easier on us.

2. Hearing Jeremy preach again. In May, we went home and Pastor Rose & the Second Baptist Church family opened up the platform for my seminarian-- and he preached with so much confidence and knowledge! He even used his Hebrew skills!! I was proud and honored to be his wife.

1. Favor!! With our finances! Lord knows this year we have had a financial drought! But-- over and over again, our bills have been paid, our daycare director being gracious, money is found/sent, the new job with a pay increase, no disconnections and most importantly-- we still tithed through all of this! I totally believe God honored our tithing in spite of being down to our last-- we are coming out the end of the year with all of our needs met and even some wants! Ex 33:17 (NLT) The Lord replied to Moses, “I will indeed do what you have asked, for I look favorably on you, and I know you by name.

BONUS: This year-- I lost 16 pounds and 15.5 inches! Very grateful for discipline and a new attitude!

My slogan for 2012, "...What is impossible for people, is possible with God." Luke 18:27.

Happy New Year Folks,
~Mrs. G

The First Lady

I have finally come to the realization that I will add one more title to Ashley: Wife, Mother, Daughter, Granddaughter, Sister, Te-Te, Friend, Blogger and... Pastor's Wife/First Lady.

I have been dreading this title since May 23, 2004 when Jeremy preached his first sermon. From then on, every time he preached, I felt like I needed to look/act a certain way. I hated that stigma that the preacher's wife has to be (insert your adjective here). And when God spoke to me about supporting my husband, I listened but I prayed more about him working in prison and mission ministry-- meaning, I wouldn't have to deal with the expectations of 'church folk.'

Then.. it happened, God told Jeremy he was going to seminary at Duke and that he would eventually pastor. Much to my dismay, I heard the same thing and followed God and my husband. Thus, here are we, preparing for ministry-- in the church--as the Pastor and 'First Lady'.

Yep-- I don't like that title. At all. Why? Well-- I'm glad you asked.

When you become the first lady of something, people (church folk) expect you to do what they want you to do. (Ask Michelle Obama). They want you to look how they want you to look or what role they want you to play in church. Some of them have ideas on how they think you should raise your children-- see, I can't!

Now-- these were somethings I experienced as a child. As an adult, I have become more confident in who I am as Jeremy's wife, Jocelyn's mother, etc. But there's still this cloud that hangs over me when mentally preparing for this role. How will people see me, when I don't feel obligated to attend Wednesday bible study? Who will approach me if my daughter gets out of hand? What happens if I decide to not wear stockings with my skirt? What if I want to wear a big blow-out? (that's a blog for another day) Or...

How will I feel at the end of the day, when Jeremy is up preparing a eulogy for a parent who's lost a child? What will I say to Jocelyn when her father is traveling out of the country for ministry for a few weeks? What happens if I'm upset with Jeremy and have to put on a smile for the church?

These questions make me cringe. But today, I'm reminded, "Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done," Phil 4:6. My role first and foremost is to be the woman of our home. Regardless of what parishioners think about me, my children-- and even my husband, my role is to support, love and encourage them. I'm not married to the church-- I'm married to Jeremy Gilmore and my first ministry is to serve God and to be what Jeremy needs me to be.

So, 'church folk'-- be a friend or a prayer warrior for your pastor's wife. She may be the first lady of the church, but she's his first lady everyday. And that is a ministry--all by itself.

JAG's first lady,
~Mrs. G

A Modern Day Proverbs 31 Woman

I have been blessed to serve as the Co-Coordinator for the Duke Divinity Spouse Group Bible Study. This semester, the Lord directed us to study Women of the Bible in the Old Testament and last night was our final bible study until January. My Co-Coordinator (S/O to Jessica :) suggested we write a remix to the Virtuous Women Proverb. With Debs, Megan and Karen, we worked at making sure our piece was familiar yet contemporary. The other two teams were amazing as well but I decided to share ours. Enjoy! And-- we hope you take something from it!

Who can find a good woman?
She is more precious than rubies.
Her husband trusts her;
because of her, he'll find success.
Together, they are content and joyous.
She's a worker, a good provider
She's not afraid to get her hands dirty.
She gives the best of everything.
She's the best at what she does and
she makes everyone look good.
She's selfless and reaches out to those in need.
Because of her hard work & elegant handy work,
her husband is respected in the community.
Because of her work in the home, her husband prospers.
Strength and dignity are her clothes
and she laughs at the time to come.
She's like.. "Bring It On!"
When she speaks, wisdom
When she she teaches, kindness.
Confident & gentle.
She's not lazy, she watches her household.
She's blessed among women, by her husband and children.
Charm & beauty won't get you anywhere.
Beware of Botox, it requires constant attention.
Inner beauty lasts forever.
The woman who respects the Lord, shall be praised
The results of all her efforts are her best eulogy.

Virtuous,
~Mrs. G